My Testimony

January 16, 2011
My husband and I heard mass today at a different church in an effort to find a priest who gives a sermon that "hits home" or "close to heart", the type of sermon that makes you feel, yes, this priest understands our "lives" as laymen, our struggles, our humanity, the realities of everyday life.

I think God heard our prayers. We went to St. William's Church which is 5 mins away from our house by car this weekend instead of our usual parish church. Amidst dealing with divided attention between trying to participate in mass and keeping Brandon quiet during the celebration, the sermon today was like manna from heaven for me. My heart heard what the priest was saying.

He was asking us how in our own way we can be a testimony of God's love and message. Very simple question that I have been asking myself lately. The odd thing about the question was that, the way the priest asked us this question today seemed to have given me the answer I am looking for --- or perhaps the answer I need.

I am not famous. We are not rich. We are so ordinary. My time is consumed with taking care of my family. I can barely find time for myself due to working full time and making sure my family is taken care of. So how do I even be a testimony to anyone?

My being a mother, my being a wife, my being a daughter to my parents, my being a sister to my siblings, my open heart, my honesty about how infallible and imperfect I am, my weakness that drives me to be ever so dependent on God, is my testimony.

Because of all my shortcomings, I see and feel love everywhere. I sense beauty and honesty. I believe in sincerity and loyalty. I have faith, that no matter how low and small I feel, God is with me and He will never leave me. I love my son with the love that would move mountains and it is the same love that I give my husband every day. I stand there for my family with whatever I have and can offer.

So Lord, here I am, all heart and soul, living the life that You want me to live, being where you want me to be and doing what you want me to do. This is all I have and I give them to You.


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