We have a dog named Sadie who is very beautiful and kind and understanding … and I think she hates me.  And I am guilty.  I don’t know what to do with myself.  When I got pregnant, I started disliking all the dog hair around the house, and all the time I need to spend taking care of Sadie and cleaning the house everyday so I don’t get stressed with dog hair.  After I delivered the baby, working full-time and becoming a mom had made it more challenging taking care of home life and the baby.  All the more I disliked having to use my little time left for vacuuming, taking the dog for a walk, cleaning the backyard of doggie poop, etc.  And then our son developed an allergy to dogs and had to be on medicine to control allergic reaction.  This time, I hated the fact that we have to give meds to our son to keep Sadie.  I don’t know what to do with these feelings.  I pray everyday that I become a better person and be the best mother not only to Brandon … but to Sadie as well.  For now, she hates me, I struggle with my feelings, and I pray and lift this up to  God everyday. To SADIE: I know I love you but I need to work on my feelings brought about by the changes in our lives and my capacity to adjust to these changes. I am sorry and I love you.